Teenage Conundrum

Walking back home from a nearby provision store, with an umbrella in one hand and a polythene bag in the other, I was breathing in the resplendence all around. The shades of monsoon sprawled across the skies as clouds drifting by rained down and dutifully completed a cycle of water yet again. Souls of the green life lining the street rejoiced in the music of the drizzling minstrel-ed by purest voices of nature. Houses and shops of different architecture occupied allies leading to each other. Far away...in a place the eyes could not visualize...the boundaries blurred and horizons met. I looked down at the tarred road thinking about antagonism presented by the vehicles emitting combustion smoke and loud noises of revving of their engines as they accelerated. The thought of eating the oreo biscuits and lays I had bought from the store made me hasten my pace. As I lifted my head up, I saw a middle aged woman clad in a turquoise saree with a handbag walking...

2015…!!! It arrived twenty days ago. Woah! Time does fly by. Am still deciding upon resolutions here! (Am I the only one?) I have been following a few them for past two days. Two  consecutive  days…which feels like a huge achievement , maybe because I have holidays going on. It has been over a month since holidays began and I was bored out of my mind with in few days. You just feel so very lazy…you don’t want to do anything but eat, sleep, waste time and repeat. Then ,the boredom reaches a point where you become irksome for no reason what so ever…that leads to bitterness which  further takes the form of guilt and a result of which you feel absolutely useless. Well, it’s  the ‘Holiday Syndrome’ as one of my friends calls it. I must say, aptly so. What new year brings along as it comes is a truckload of positive feelings. Everyone is, for once, ready to let go of their past and start afresh. We wish each other a very Happy New Year and fill ourselves wi...

Feels like a lifetime has passed by since I last blogged. And I feel absolutely guilty that I have not been an active blogger. But so much has happened over the past few months that looking back on it, it really feels surreal(unbelievable in the nightmarish way...not to forget, nightmares are dreams too) . Its like looking at a far off and distant part of me. All those competitive exams, 12th board exam results, counselling, indecision, contemplation and here I am now doing Engineering. To be honest I still have not let that fact sink in completely into my system. What I think is so ridiculous about the whole thing is that you are just seventeen or eighteen year old's and just about yet starting to learn the realities of life.Despite that, you are expected to know what you want to do professionally for what could probably be the rest of your life. I mean sure there are those who are sure about it and I respect people like that wholeheartedly. But the truth is most of us are livin...

                                   What does it take to be Happy? What is your take on it? Is mine any different from yours? Or others’? Or everyone elses’? What is Happiness? Is it money? Is it fame? Is it love? Is it revenge? Is it a memory? Is it a grail? Is it within you? Is it without you? Is happiness a destination? Or is it one of the two paths which flank it? Or is it the path leading to the destination? Where do you find happiness? In the brightness of the rising sun? Or, the serenity of the reflecting moon?                      In the chirping of colorful  birds? Or, the rustling of green leaves? In the stark clouded sky? Or, the heavy pouring rain? In your favorite movie or song? Or, your favorite actor or singer? In the inn...

Sitting on a chair by her desk, Jenny didn’t know what she felt… Was it fear, anticipation or confusion? You could say it was nothing, She was just numb. Tired of thinking and rethinking all the same old things. All that she wanted is to be distracted from her thoughts… Her mind…her- self…. Self  - who is Jenny? Had Jenny lost herself in a world so big? Will we never find Jenny’s self? Or had Jenny just evolved playing her small part in a larger scene? Had Jenny undergone a change inevitable? Is it good? Is it bad? If only you knew… Would you let her know..oh..oh! Standing there as the scintillating rays of light met the horizon, Jeanne knew what she felt. She could put it in verses So pristine, exquisite yet naïve. You could say it’s nothing, She was just lively. Never tired of seeing or re-veiwing All the same little things which made life purposeful. All she wanted was to let her thoughts flow…be in her ...

                            Today is one of those really cold winter evenings in Bangalore. I sauntered across my balcony and gazed at the lawn. It looked more alive and beautiful due to the drops of rainwater on the leaves and petals forming patterns that brought a smile on my face. I stood leaning onto the railings of the steps leading to our house downstairs. A few yards away, in the site behind our house, at my eye level was a lone, lush green tree flanked by a tarless road (which added to the originality of the naturistic scenario). The rain had taken a hiatus. The cool air swished past me in a slow and tantalising manner ; rustling the leaves of the tree I was constantly staring at (for some reason I couldn’t take my eyes off it). A few children all clad in warm outfits walked along the roadside in groups chattering and laughing to their hearts content. The sight instigated a maelstrom of feelings inside m...

                         Another day has gone,I wasted it all again Oblivious to the fact that the unforgiving minute waits for none – once gone, never returns. I look around and see people striving for what they want , despite their insecurities… That’s when I ask myself – “What do I really want?” A hundred sounds fill my head, The echoes grow louder than ever, to reach a pitch where every sound Is unnaturally amplified. I would say déjà vu but, I reckon a little difference Doesn’t really matter…so, Am thinking it over again, Am saying it over again, Over and over again. But I swear this time, It ’ll be a little different,yeah! It ’ll be different… All over again!!! It wasn’t long before I realsied, I am travelling through a maze- whose challenge is to find MY WAY through it; making the CHOICES which Can make or break my survival. Is this what it’s all about – S...